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Self Identified Deity

by At Home In Hell

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1.
Fear 01:46
2.
Rite To Sin 03:54
Why do we trust in the things we can't see? Some need the hope they can do what they please. Jesus will wash away our sins, so that we can take comfort in doing them, because our conscience will be mended. Why have faith when you don't follow it? You only believe in all the benefits. Have you tried taking responsibility? No you just partake so you feel less guilty. In what culture does this make sense? Passing your faults to someone we have never met. Does this make sense? Does this make sense? Do you believe someone died for your bullshit? Died for your bullshit. He died for you… What makes you think you can do what you want? Like others don't suffer the pain of their loss. Hide in a box and confess what you've done. Then wash it away with the blood of your Lord. God is love? Bullshit... He turned away And left us to rot in this purgatory. Where it's OK to ruin other people's lives As long as you ask for forgiveness from Christ.
3.
Slave Dance 04:06
Watching you move to me is like dwelling in a pornographic movie scene. I can’t believe I'm living my fantasy where I get anything I could have ever dreamed So long as I continue Feeding your every need to keep you distracted. Pushing the drug to vein so you'll stay invested. I need to keep it clean if I'm going to keep you dancing here just for me so no one else can have a turn. This can’t be wrong. Watching you is like feeling God’s heart pound This place will become home the moment you see that I’ll never let you go but I’ll give you all the World possessions I own as long as you don’t leave me I cannot be alone, my thoughts are too deceiving Throw me a fuckin bone, show me you’re interested I will give you the throne, the keys to the kingdom Promise you’ll take the oath that you will never scream out No one will care to know my cost for dedication Beauty is the failed relic of necessity What I offered can’t be replaced by society Yet you clearly chose to run when I can set you free In the distance, someone screaming “Please God Help Me!” Watching you dance for me is like swimming in an ocean of ecstacy while I sink into the abyss of the extreme cuz I’ve seen it all now you’ll always steal the scene, the prize of my collection
4.
Sit down and enjoy the eulogies of bastards. Sinners sacrificed to feed a greater purpose. They have no clue, they cannot see the light. They’ll only prove our holy teachings right. I can hear them all sob in pain, Only because they don't know of the reckoning I just wait and he says the name. I can't offer them more than their grieving. Look into the crowd, they even dress alike And where the same old frowns and tired weeping eyes. I brought you here to see their broken faces. So much despair because they don't know their places. This is where you stop following and start leading. Show me what you've got. You know he's always waiting. You hear it too, I know he whispers to you. You’ll have to prove your dedicated faith to. We were chosen by him, given swords of flame To bring down our Justice systematically Bow down to me! Pray unto me! They will suffer greatly, those who don't obey. We will suffer mostly because we chose to stay. Bow down to me! Pray unto me!
5.
Beg you don't fail to follow my advice...You will be sorry. We've committed an act of Revolutionary Suicide protesting the conditions of an inhumane world. We found her while drowning in the darkness. We were blinded by her holy essence. She bared knowledge. Gave us all the tools we needed to get through this. There was purpose, there was meaning. We all had a job which made our world a better place to raise our children. A better place to live in our own heaven. Bow down, It's too late to abandon our lord now. It's too late to be born again. When the world came begging for their sisters, brothers, mothers, sons and daughters, We knew we had opened their eyes. We knew they would burn what we created. Love was all she ever dealt, it was her cross. She kept our hearts at peace and cured our thoughts And guided us through the valley of the lost. Through guilt and shame we followed till she absolved our pain. Bow down, it's too late. We must end it all now! Wow! It's too late. We can show the whole world how It's too late. Let the children go down first. It's too late. Without them there's no... Love, was all she ever dealt, it was her cross. She kept our hearts at peace and cured our thoughts And guided us through the valley of the lost. Through guilt and shame we followed till she stopped. Stop. Stop. STOP. All the time we gave her can't be bartered with the filth of a failed, broken system. We will fight for our rights! We will sacrifice this world to live in Love, was all she ever dealt, it was her cross. She kept our hearts at peace and cured our thoughts And guided us through the valley of the lost. Through guilt and shame, we followed till she stopped. And when she disappeared it all came out. With all the lies we heard, We stood our ground!
6.
Face Of God 06:27
I have tasted all the pain the world could offer someone. I have witnessed suffering beyond your comprehension. I am the cause of your fears and all your endless nightmares. I am the reason you bleed because you're caught my snare. I need you but I grow bored. This has become the routine with all of them supplying Necessary ecstasy while they continue Dying. How do I find all the weak when all I know is power? I sit and wait in the streets until they find their way here. Grow bored Growing bored Restless and crashing hard. I need more than you can offer me. This new rush is just the bridge to change. Your world has ended your light is gone. My shadow is now your Face of God. I cannot wait any more for the sheep to find their way Into the blade spilling all their darkest dreams into me. I need to bathe in the blood so I can wash away the Shame that I feel though you know you came to me to be clean. After it all was in sight the people had to have their Way sending all of their might and one public defender. I had no reason to hide the trophies they provided. I knew I’d done all them right by making them the answer. I need you but I grow bored.
7.
The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist. Lie so that I can be with you all the time, a shadow in your dreams. Living in your minds eye where I can’t die. I'm only here because you need something to believe. You are everything to me. Now I am immortal dwelling in your nightmares. I live because you lie. Who really knows the truth? They think that they do. All I need is you talking / spreading / hearing / fearing / passing / trusting, only what they've told you. Sold you! It's all true! Or it’s just another story. Take a look at what I’ve done. (Oh my God) Fear is just another way (Stripped Away) To take from them one by one (Everything) That which means the most to me.
8.
Lives sometimes cross in a way we could never imagine Breaking the walls I’ve built to save you from my infection Everything I want is there in you Everything that kills is here in me You’re the only one I care who lives I don’t think that I can curb the need You are my light. You are the cause of my own destruction Change was in sight till my heart broke delaying my ascension I - I don’t want this to be. I don’t need you to know me I don’t want you to see all the things I’ve had to do to get where I am Where does our love fit in a world that cannot accept that I’ve spilled too much blood to go back to a life of service? Lives have gone by. I can still taste the horrors they suffered since our first night together wasting my entire effort. This love is wrong. I just know in my soul I will pull your heart out, wrap it in foam, box it up, then leave it alone til the day comes when I know I buried my true love
9.
The Knife 05:35
Silence...for the bringers of all the dark as it courses through dying veins Let the blood and the steel mesh at the cost of only a slave Let the cardboard creator die while his ashes blacken the sun Torture to tired souls but freedom for everyone They’ll follow anything your force them to - Praise Be To God! Let it fall upon the proud and the few - Praise Be To God! Life is an actress dancing on the stage - Praise Be To God! Screaming “FOLLOW!” Silence...for the colloid company rock and it’s warning written in red With a face like stone to the rain, the insanity lead. So come one, come all to the carnal carnival show Step right up to the plate. Can you go home? No! Look into this mirror you fucking coward - Praise Be To God! See your reflection in the pools of blood - Praise Be To God! See your reflection in the knife - Praise Be To God! The Knife! Forsaken life, mercy shown to none. Blind lust for fire - To death, like insects, they run. Build a bridge through chaos, leads to absolution Fighting, falling, all that remains are screams. Forsaken life, mercy shown to none. AT HOME IN HELL - To death, like insects, they run.
10.
The dreams of youth are the regrets of maturity. Dreams are my specialty. All things change. This will be a moment to remember. Crawling skin. The festering eternal. Hope is here, a fleeting moment passes, But the fear keeps the mind forever numb. Yeah. Take your place among my forbidden. Soulless gaze, helps decide the chosen. Take the pill and forget all the nightmares. Lose your will and feed all my desires. Storm clouds rise, the medication sets in. All you hide is laid out upon the surface.
11.
Everyone lies they don't talk about it. Everyone lies they just choose to ignore. They feel like they need to put up a wall. They feel like they need to run from it all. Everyone lies to hide all of the pain. Everyone lies something to mask the shame. They feel like they can't let anyone know. They feel like they can't say anything. Everyone Lies… Why do we feel we should suffer alone? Why do we feel like we're the only ones? Who has to pay for the secrets we keep? Who has to pay for the ones in your dreams? And if we try we can pass it all off, Until we start believing it ourselves. We feel like we can't let anything out. We feel like we can't tell anyone. We can place the blame on the ones who are weak. To break the shame of the ones who don't speak. Force it all away with the hands of deceit it Won't go away till the answers make sense or they know the truth. No… Sit relax and ignore it. Enjoy the fact you don't know the truth. Sit relax and enjoy it. They don't want you to know the truth.
12.
Darkness shines self reflections Boredom kills concentration Only myself to talk to and I’m sure he’s crazy Broken seems too dramatic Hopeless is more climactic Given the circumstances, I’m all out of chances Clawing the walls, watching the halls Biding my time, waiting for no one to notice I’ll never be let out, set free Death is the cure...that is what the voices whisper It’s been a long time since they’ve let me out to see the sun How long can I try holding on, life is clearly done They keep the chains tight hoping it would someday make me break It took a few nights...twelve thousand, six hundred forty eight. Clawing the walls, watching the halls Biding my time, waiting for no one to notice I found the cure, now I am pure The voices fade with every mouthful of my flesh Peace is now in sight, can’t recall the last time I could sleep Waiting for the light, taking more time than one would think Maybe one more bite will bring me my much deserved fate It will be alright, there’s not much more left of me to save Don’t judge a con’s decision, one man's hell is ones heaven I’ve been too long in this head and I’m sure I’m crazy Dire seems too pathetic, tired is more poetic Given the circumstances, I’m all out of chances
13.
Fault 04:27
You make it easy to talk about you, Because of all the stupid shit you do. When will you realize everything's gone? There's no one left for you to blame all this on. Now suffer your consequence, act like a man. Stop laying burdens on all of your friends. Will your bullshit ever come to a halt? Don't punish me, it's not my fuckin fault. Don't punish me for something I did not do! Why do you punish me? Why were you so persistent with your thoughts? Like no one could see through your lies or your plots. Suddenly everything's come to an end. There's nowhere to go everything's caving in. When did you notice your choices were wrong? Far too long to save yourself from it all. I felt I did what was necessary. Fuck up your own life but don't fuck with me. Please don't punish me. It is Not my fucking fault!

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released May 5, 2019

Produced by Kevin George, Ben Epperle & Paul Epperle
Mixed and Mastered by Kevin George

At Home In Hell:
Ben Epperle - Vocals
Paul Epperle - Drums
Kevin George - Guitars
Jake Collins - Bass

All drums recorded @ The Stillman Loft (Great Falls, MT)
Everything else recorded @ Executioner213 Recordings (Butte, MT)

Performance Credits:
Ben Epperle - Vocals/Lyrics
Paul Epperle - Drums
Kevin George - Guitars, Bass (except tracks 2 & 9), Samples, Keyboards, Backing vocals
Lafe Boucher - Bass on tracks 2 & 9, Backing Vocals
Jake Collins - Backing Vocals
Coleton McCaul - Backing Vocals
Taylor Steiner - Original Writing (Tracks 2, 7, 9, 11, 13)
Chris Nygard - Samples (Tracks 2, 7, 9, 11, 13)
Busta - Barking Vocals

Whispers From Beyond:
Lafe Boucher, Jake Collins, Ben Epperle, Kirsten Fogle, Kevin George, Nate Haines, Meghan Skinner

Management: Damon Moreno / The Inner Light Agency
Cover Art: Septian Fajrianto / Illustranesia.com

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At Home In Hell [ at - hohm - in - hel ]
Idiom; Being in a state of physical or mental comfort, or being content or satisfied with one's unfavorable, miserable or outright shitty situation.

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