In Home Hell

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released January 31, 2012

All music written & produced by AT HOME IN HELL
Lyrics by Ben Epperle, except "The Dogg" by Taylor Steiner, Ben Epperle, and Chris Nygard

At Home In Hell:
- Ben Epperle - Lead Vocals, Bass, Piano on "Help!"
- Paul Epperle - Drums
- Chris Nygard - Samples, Keyboards, Backing Vocals, Bass on "Help!"
- Kevin George - Guitars, Vocals on "Glorys End/Never Again"

Engineered/Mixed/Mastered by Kevin George (Executioner213 Recordings)
Art Direction & Editing, Concept & Layout: Ben Epperle
Front & Back Cover Art: Casey O'Meara
Photography: Meghan Skinner

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At Home In Hell [ at - hohm - in - hel ]
Idiom; Being in a state of physical or mental comfort, or being content or satisfied with one's unfavorable, miserable or outright shitty situation.

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Track Name: House Of No Faces
Welcome to the house of no faces, here lies only secrets.
Hidden in the darkest corners buried deep within these closets.
Built on fear of consequences, avoiding repercussions.
Dwelling in the ignorance while being haunted by subconscious.

Welcome to the House of No Faces,
Welcome to the place of no peace
Welcome to the House of No Faces
Welcome to the origin of Fear!

Here lies all the wealth you have dreamed of and all the worlds spoils.
All you need to posses is the will to burn all of it's people.
Over here the wisdom you're seeking, over there the toilet.
Wash their feet and bless your neighbor then eat up all of his children.

Welcome to the House of No Faces,
Welcome to the place of no peace
Welcome to the House of No Faces
Welcome to the origin of Fear!

Reprogram, abandon faith, give away all your decisions.
Let this be the home to all things you were never meant to imagine.
Past the road to innocence, short of the one to condemnation.
Where all right turns lead straight to hell and on the left, your decomposition.

Welcome to the House of No Faces,
Welcome to the place of no peace
Welcome to the House of No Faces
Welcome to the origin of Fear!
Track Name: Help!
Leave it alone for now. It'll go away.
Long will I live this down, will it ever fade?
Please tell me when and how I can rid myself of your fucking filthy flesh obsession. Now see...
what this is all about, what you've done to me.
Can't seem to figure out this whole lust disease.
Lost in a sea of doubt, filled of putrid seed,
flooding the fields where my innocence used to feed.

I don't want this. I don't need this.
Weighing on me. Eating everything I crave.
Taking all things precious from me.
Say it's over. Pray that this is all over.

Time past won't fade away. Help please, don't leave me be.
Time past won't fade away. Help please, don't leave me be.

Carry all you can bare by whatever means.
Risk your own sanity trying not to speak,
For fear that there is worse that hasn't been seen.
You'll see what happens when you break your secrecy.
Would it be possible for them to believe,
Just one unbiased ear would be a relief,
Or will they turn away because I'm guilty
Somehow by allowing this forced atrocity?

I don't want this. I don't need this.
Weighing on me. Eating everything I crave.
Taking all things precious from me.
Say it's over. Pray that this is all over.

Time past won't fade away. Help please, don't leave me be.
Time past won't fade away. Help please, don't leave me be...Broken.

No one comes when they can't hear you scream! Can I be saved?

Take all your apologies, shove them up your ass to the elbow. Then maybe you'll see what your sickness did to me. This can't be forgiven. You can never replace what you've taken from me......BURN!!
Track Name: Last Chance
What is left when the hope is gone?
Pointless routines fill voids where the dream should be.
Come and go, take the drive through lane.
Nowhere is somewhere & somewhere is better than what you've created in here.

Open up and tear down these walls!
This is where it all starts to fall!
Giving up no Crown or no Throne!
Do you really want to go home?

Don't believe fate left you to hang.
So satisfied in this place of poverty.
Take only what you're gonna need
Just because this failed once doesn't mean your defeat

Run! Hey, now do you want it?
See, you're gonna want it.
Yeah, come on show me you're not done
Hey, now do you want it?
Yeah, you really want it.
Now get out, get where you belong.

Do you really want to go home?
Giving up no crown or no throne.
This is where it all starts to fall.
Open up and tear down these walls.
Will you step up or shut down?

How can you see clearly now you've fallen so
Far from the planet that you can't see it's glow?
Filled so full of shit about the real world.
Too scared to attempt so you will never know.

When did you die?
Giving up on everything inside!
Gone forever lost in your mind!
This is where your legacy lies!
Do you really want to go home?
Track Name: My Pain
I can see right into you.
You turned out to be the fool.
Hoping it could be like new.
I want to believe it too.

All this extra tension,
Who are we really helping?

Ask all your stupid questions.
Scream at the top of your lungs.
Thinking this will get things done.
Clearly no one's having fun.

No one's having fun.
No one asked you to stay
You chose this way.

Now do you wanna be my slave?
You want to take my place?
You wanna know my shame?
You want to feel My Pain?
Now do you want to feel the same?

I can see right into you.
You turned out to be the fool.
Using fear like power tools
Driving through the brains of mules.

All this extra tension,
Who are we really helping?

How hard can it be to run?
Scream at the top of your lungs.
Should have, would have, could have so I did and now I'm never done.
Clearly no one's having fun.

No one's having fun.
No one asked you to stay
You chose this way.

Now do you wanna be my slave?
You want to take my place?
You wanna know my shame?
You want to feel My Pain?
Now do you want to feel the same?

I can see right into you.
You turned out to be the fool.
Should have, would have, could have so I did and now I'm never done.
Clearly no one's having fun.

Are you having fun.
No one asked me my say
I chose nothing!

Now do you wanna be my slave?
You want to take my place?
You wanna know my shame?
You want to feel My Pain?
Now do you want to feel the same?
Track Name: Wrong Way Home
Do you recognize me?
How could you forget this face?
You really don't remember.
I was the one you misplaced!

You said you wanted me to get out.
Cold and hard, shoving me into the ground.
I've never been anywhere like this.
Now it's time, suffer all that I've lived.

I can't
Continue anything till
You feel what
I felt in this place!

Where are you taking me?
I've never been here before.
You got your laugh, now I'm bored.
Lost, scared, unaware & cold.

If I close my eyes, will I wake up?
Now who's there? I can't see why is it dark?
Do you know where I've been? Where I'm from?
I can't forgive the things that you've done.

I can't
Continue anything till
You feel what
I felt in this place!
Track Name: Threshold
It's all I can think of because I'm so sick of this!

I wanted you now like never before!
Can't disguise the desire or fight the impulse.
I can taste it all while I drown in my thoughts.
Drawn to the suspense and thrill of this!

It's all I can think of because I'm so sick of this!

Is this what I get to look forward to?
Lost in a sleepless haze that's clouding the view.
I could see it all now I only see you!

Blinded by what you say,
I've got to get away.

Ah what's the point? Why the games?
Is it always this tough to leave the life you learned to trust?
I could spend everyday wishing this was enough
But for you and me it's not anymore.

No Fuck it all, Who cares?
There's nothing left for me to lose.
I can chose between this or you shitting on me!
Inhibitions are for the yesterday. It's in the past.
I'm sorry, but I don't care anymore.

I don't give a fuck anymore!
Track Name: Glorys End/Never Again
We can't have you get in the way, you can forget about it.
Try to leave wit hone less mistake, just give it up because it's through.
It's all I ever wanted, to, but they don't understand.

All the stupid bullshit you say, it's overplayed and boring.
Get the fuck away from the stage, avoid the unforgiving truth.
They'll always criticize you. It's all they ever really do.
They'll never stop, it's never through. Stop wasting time thinking of you.
Fuck you!

Years spent of you convincing me I'm blind,
Has led us to confusion on either side.
On this hand I'm told that I'm wasting my time.
On this one, it's real, it's not all in my mind.
No I can't, I won't give up!

Fuck it, I'm giving in, you can have your way.
Only problem is you might not be appeased.
You made me choose and I chose my destiny.
Sorry, I had to. You forced this down on me!
"Give Up? Give up...GIVE UP!"

I don't hear a word, spite your integrity.
I'm only here for you. Forget all my needs.
It's always me, my fault, fuck me anyway!
Take another look and we'll see what you think of me now!

This will never be a mistake, I can't forget about it.
Never will it be in the way. Following this all the way through
Is all I ever want to do, but you don't understand.

Anything I'm trying to say, you're just afraid of change.
So either get the fuck on the train, or back the fuck up!
There's your truth! My worst critic was always you.
It's all you ever really do!
You'll never stop, it's never through.
Your shit is weak, and so are you!
Track Name: Systematic Makeover
Wake up!

Wake up to war on reason.
Judge them all, then continue your daily life in comfortable disappointment. Ordered to make rent. Proving that some have figured out how to forget all the suffering they're causing and those that do without are blinded by false advertisements of freedom.

So stop your endless running, look at their faces, watch them change and then tell me that they're not part of a Systematic Makeover, dictating takeover, ruling the world with capitalistic reasoning while trading and selling our souls to those "in need", to continue feeding the void in their pockets. Wake up!

2:14 Hypno-colonic
Give you life in the global war!

Give them one reason to take it all!
Track Name: The Dogg
Warning, you fucker!

Concrete of crimson, it's engineered.
The lights outside of the warehouse are burning clear.
His spine was tied and twisted from hooded skull.
Maybe this 12 guage cocktail will end their toil.
Cannibalize!

It's chain and hose hydraulic, and rail steel.
Onboard the train narcotic, too late to heal.
You know you let this happen, you dug the hole.
Bend over backwards to die, it's getting old.

Murder the sun! (Murder!)
Look mommy, see what I've done! (Murder!)
Too bad you won't be there (Murder!)
To watch me kill everyone! (Everyone!)

Doesn't it suck it had to be this way?
You should have shut up now I'm not to blame.
Watching you crawl is deeply pleasing to me.
I would not have it any other way.
I have been dreaming too long of this day.
Too bad you won't be there to celebrate.
How can you keep thinking it's all OK?
If only you knew what I had up my sleeve.

Your ignorance won't help. Should this be so surprising?
Find your happy place now, cause this could get exciting!
Have you ever seen hell? Just close your eyes and fall away.
Before you hurt yourself, More than I have already!

Warning, you fucker!

Skin starts crawling realizing this is fate.
Come much too far now, there will be no turning back.
This is the big reward for all of the hate.
Mind starts to drown, everything is turning black.
Slowly fading, falling down.
All of this bleeding can't explain how I'm feeling.
Look what I've had to do now.
I can't control my breathing, heart stops beating.

Murder the sun! (Murder!)
Look mommy, see what I've done! (Murder!)
Too bad you won't be there (Murder!)
To watch me kill everyone! (Everyone!)
Track Name: An Untimely End
It's been over far too long to try
holding onto what little light you'll leave behind!
Blow it out!
Maybe death is better than this.

I am the bitter taste of conception.
Hallowed a shell weaved of imperfection.
Sown into filth to grow it's reflection.
Weathered through years of sorrow and pain.

I see the end coming, and I can't wait.

I want you to hurt like I do.
All the hell I've suffered through has got the best of me. I give in you see, no one wins! Everything I love always dies. I can't seem to pull my shit back together. It's gone on too long.

Seemed like such a simple plan.
Abandon all family and friends.
And bury yourself in this room.
There's no on there to save you.

It was over long before you knew just how much there was left that you can never do. Oh no!
How could I let myself sink so deeply into this hell, when all I was missing lay just above this plane of self-loathing. Bleeding from wall to wall for nothing. Why can't I turn back time and try again?

While the room continues to spin. The dark is settling in. Showing things to me I will never be, I should go on to be more. So much more in store. There was everything to be, All that I could dream. Taken from me. There's no one here to Save me!

You were ready for this ending.
You were so willing to purge your sorrow.
Please God show me the sun again!
Please God give me a second chance!

Show me the sun again, I'll embrace it.
Give me a second chance, I won't waste it.
Pray for my soul.
Track Name: WalloH!
I don't want to be the one who has to deal with everything, Don't want to be the one who suffers through your time of need. I don't want to be the one. I don't want to be the one anymore. Why was I born into this? Who pointed the finger at me? Can't they see I'm not happy? Why can't they see this isn't me? I don't want to be the one. I don't want to be the one anymore. Look at yourself right now, wallowing in all your selfish needs, longing for someone with sympathy, waiting for someone who isn't me. It goes on and on, all this pain's a part of me. On and on, take a stand and move on and on. all this shit's a part of me. On and on, take a stand and we'll fight! Get the fuck up and fight!
Track Name: A Poem To Remember Her By
Pillows and whispers lie covered in dust
Tools of precision left slowly to rust
Silent for days while ignoring the musk
Beautifully portrayed forever in lust.
I love you

Bring pain bring disdain from silhouette skies
Deep sacred sex over porcelain eyes
Our blue pools and bones smoke once we say goodbye
Disgustingly decaying through this disguise.

Fall in, fall out, fall through broken frontlines.
Tasting the sweet desperation of time.
They trade shoes, trade places, trade problems, trade minds.
Why did the lights go out? Everything's fine.

Shadows walk into grey ash of disease.
Watching the wildfire spread like her knees.
Oh how I want, how I wish I could be
All alone with your skin dripping off me.

Let me help you become more than a dream.
Filtering all thought through one single scream.
Now breath in, breathe faster, breathe harder, breathe deep.
Cause this reflection is the last thing you'll see.

Guilt is the flame burning under the seams.
Smothered by pride and the tears of a queen.
Where will you rest in this field of concrete?
I saved you a spot next to me where I sleep.

I love you!
Track Name: Beatrice
I would do anything, I would give everything, be anything, your everything, if only to escape this lonely reality. Dull in complexity, depresses me, I'm endlessly awaiting disappointment! This won't ever become anything unless you can take it & make it everything! I'm lost without someone there to guide me through the inferno!

I'd prolong miser, out of necessity, through loyalty, and tragedy, if it could somehow help to break up this same routine, driving insanity through streets that we lead, toward false relief, to bring us one day closer!

What I mean to say is I like it this way, I couldn't think of anything more pleasant. Followed signs that weren't clear and they all led me here though my purpose so unclear I've questioned. For I've been here so long and it's all gone so wrongg growing more fond of each days depressions. That I've lost my way and have nowhere to stray and have nothing to be but your everything!

How can I stay high? You've shown me that I have nothing, am nothing, love nothing! No goodbyes!